Physical pain disrupts you on many levels. It hits your emotions, and it can take awhile to discover the core issue. For me pain makes me sad. Even the simplest headache, if it continues, will make me cry. Not because it is so painful, but because it brings to the surface deep sorrow. This remorse is not connected to any particular incident. It is merely an underlying sensation.
Recently I have found a new emotion to pain: blame. Who am I blaming? Me! I have regret over what I did or did not do, which creates this agitation in my body. The body that I love, the body I have taken care of for 69 years, yes my body that I have blessed and poured Reiki love into. That body.
I now see that a good portion of my healing is going to come from forgiveness. And the forgiveness is internal, in my mind. I need to let go of the “should’ve,” “would’ve,” and “could’ve”. Believe it or not, everything has purpose for our higher growth. We may not know the reason for pain at the time, but the new perception will arise if you ask for the answer and are patient until it arrives. Then let love and forgiveness flow into and around you, and let expectations go. Because of my physical limitations, I have found the most compassionate people coming into my life, and I have the opportunity to radiate love back to them.
Life is a blessing, every step of the way.